Healing

Why

Push the boy out of the plane before
He can know what's happening
Tape the death and view the suffering
Left for all to see the pain

I've invoked my only choice to be
Something that you want me to be
Demon formed your eyes so you can be free
Change your mind on what you mean to me

Viral lie that slowly turns to truth
Can't assume it's black or white
Justice reigns as equalizer, but
Can I say what's truly right?

Forced into a ceasefire before
I could start tally deaths
Truce instated only just until
I can finally see it all (dead)

This is only a dream, this is only a dream
This is not happening, I cannot let it be

I won't let this happen to me

I wish I gave more for your time
I wish I'd never tried to
Fight the tears prolong the suffering
Let this pain become your light

I kissed my memories all good bye
I bid them all away
I wish you'd see into my eyes
Let me keep you, I need you to stay

Of course I'm Happier this way!
"Hey baby how're you doing?"

WHY CAN'T I FEEL ANYTHING
WHY'RE THEY ALL LAUGHING AT ME

I can feel voices yelling at me now saying
YOU ARE WRONG what am I even doing?
CELEBRATE lives are sold to (Satan!)

Times have changed pushed me to the point of shunning my own
BITCH FUCK YOU what does this look like, church?
End one life then another and another and another and...
I WANT TO SEE US ALL DEAD

To grow into a better place
To feel the time slip away
And I can not begin to say
What it means to be awake

It's all that's ever in my head
It's all that I can think
It's all too much to comprehend
It's all too much to live this life with

Oh, You wanted out, but I wasn't done with you yet
Justice has to be served! Who else but me could take the burden?
Hi

Now embrace the void and seek the dark's call
Indulge in thoughts of hate
Demonize the ones that cared for us
Don't you dare to speak their name

All we want is is her to love again
Let me mend the open wound
Listen now she's speaking to me!!
She speaks to me!

I wish you cared more for my mind
I wish you'd never tried to
Fight so much, prolonged my suffering
Made me hate the morning light

I tried to give you what you need
You chose to push me away
There's nothing left for me in your
Psycho-manic day-to-day

I needed you to keep me sane
You chose to throw me away
I couldn't bare to see
My own self staring back at me

Why can't you look within your heart
Remember who we used to be
Have you a shred of care for me?
She responded tremblingly

No this isn't how it's meant to be
(There's nothing I can be)
Let me prove that we're unbreakable
(To mend your insecurities)
Fuck you make me want to off myself
(Embrace the crooked line)
Now I want to see us all dead
(This healing will have ended when we die)

I left you when my time was done
There's no one here to blame
Discussing fault will lead to loss
Just let me see your face

You need to be yourself again
I need to let you be
I need to see myself become
More than what you will ever get to see