Purpose

I'm just sitting here contemplating
Hoping that a nigga get some compensation
For all the sacrifices that I'm constantly making
Because failures more scarier than the condom breaking
I ain't never entertaining the doubts
I been grinding so I notice what the hate is about
I had some people turn on me but tell me why would I pout
They true colors is showing the grind is drawing em out
I'm in the business of winnin
I'm not accustom to losing
But took some Ls in the past cause I had to switch up the movement
It was a sign from the heavens
I had to become more humble
Fighting thru all this pain you can say I'm ready to rumble
I say the clock is still ticking long as a nigga is breathing
Had to get used to change cause everything for a season
I say I'm here for a reason
But you ain't gotta believe it
Cause if success is the mission I can't stop til it's completed

I'm just tryna bring life to the vision
The way that I cook it up that of the likes of a chemist
I lost my focus for a moment now I'm back wit a vengeance
My white friend told me get a grip and handle my business
Say I'm to dedicated
My son is my motivation
I hate when we separated
But I just gotta be patient
Cause even though I do hate it
You know I still gotta make it
I gotta sacrifice for the foundation that I'm creating
Some of you may not understand it
Well let's talk priorities
You materialistic I focus on what means more to me
You know what's a reward to me
When he's happy and worry free
I just map out the plan after that I follow accordingly
Have you
Ever really feared an eviction
Or seen a friend fall victim to some kind of addiction
Man we black and we ain't proving no statistic prediction
I put myself in position so that my son don't deal wit it

I feel like I had been searching for purpose
And even though I was working
I felt like nothing was working
I put my trust in my lady
But turns out she tried to play me
She went and told all these lies and I found out she was shady
I never thought it would end especially so abrupt
But I guess that's what I get for giving her all of my trust
Would've gave her my all but I guess that wasn't enough
Woulda tried to do this again but you just doin to much
All of the time I invested I cannot get it back
Was it all a distraction
Not dwelling on that
But I'm impacted
I'm tryna get back to
Where I was happy
Something tells me if I'm true to myself then il be happier after this
Matter fact actually
I'll just get back to me
Self satisfactory
King I'm your majesty
What has been happening
Almost forgot I was the truth
But now I know what to do
If I just take care of mines then how can I ever lose
I woke up