Debilitated

Secrets of the night
Make everyone go hide
Pretend we're not afraid
But we are terrified inside our minds
I visualize that everyone has died
Everyone has died, everyone has died, everyone has died

And I try to masquerade the fear inside
But it's taking over, taking over my mind
I don't know how long I can hide but

I will try
Again and again to fend off the fear inside
And I will strive because I must survive
These involuntary dreams

And every time I faint
I wake up in untold pain
Perplexity absurdity
Tell me please what's wrong with me?

He says, "I'm sure you're fine"-
You think I'm fine?-
I think you're fine

But I will run some tests for your piece of mind
I know how hard it can be
At home you cook and you clean
I just think you need some sleep

And for the dreams
They're more than dreams!-
They're only dreams
They're just imaginary, fiction, merely fantasy

I know your scared and afraid
But you can't let it persuade you
To feel so dismayed

I will try
Again and again to fend off the fear inside
And I will strive because I must survive
These involuntary dreams

And every time I faint
I wake up in untold pain
Perplexity absurdity
Tell me please what's wrong with me?

"Ma'am, I've received the results of your tests
And it appears you have either
Voluntarily or involuntarily ingested a high dose
Of a drug called Ketamine
Is there something you're not telling me?"

No!

I've been drugged
Taken advantage of
It must be what's causing all these dreams
It's smothering me, I can hardly breathe, every time I fall asleep!

I will try
Again and again to fend off the fear inside
And I will strive because I must survive
These involuntary dreams

And every time I faint
I wake up in untold pain
Perplexity absurdity
Tell me please what's wrong with me?