I Knew Better, But Did Nothing

I'm not proud of the things I've done
But I'm proud of the person that I can become
'Cause somewhere between day one & now
I tried to chase a popular sound

I tried to chase a comfort for those around
But when the show ends we're sleeping on hardwood beds
Praying to God we find out if we got the support slot or not
That can make or break our sound in the end.

Hoping we could move on to another market
Rather than the one that made us
Rather than the one that changed us
So we wanna take a detour, change behaviour & make more
Find our faces on The Fader or Pitchfork & digress even more

What did you expect from me?
It's hard to be this honest with my heart on my sleeve
Where do I go, what can I be?
Nothing equals nothing this did nothing for me

We just hoped our rebellion would look like rebellion
Rather than what it is:
A target for millenials to put their faith in
But I'm proud to say we made some people
look into themselves rather than the evil

I'll always thank the ones who
trusted me enough to join me on this journey
Even the ones who didn't stick around
I'm still grateful for the ones who helped shape the sound
Now I just need to thank God for this forgiveness

What did you expect from me?
It's hard to be this honest with my heart on my sleeve
Where do I go, what can I be?
Nothing equals nothing this did nothing for me

What did you expect from me?
It's hard to be this honest with my heart on my sleeve
Where do I go, what can I be?
Nothing equals nothing this did nothing for me

Now I can thank God for the idea of forgiveness
And I can thank God that I'm still in this
'Cause I love the idea of a future
'Cause though it never comes, it's somehow always happening

And every moment that I'm not asleep is a moment where I think
Maybe I should've just finished it up & gotten that degree
'Cause Mom, I made it, I just wish I would've learned something
'Cause now this emptiness haunts me.