Doomed to Try

If you've done things you regret now
In the couple of decades you've been alive
Please tell me why and if it has to do
With the fact that you wanna be good, I believe you
I believe you, I believe you, I believe in you
Just stop fucking doing those things that you used to
The self-destructive behaviors you've learned don't only affect you
But the people you love, the ones
You wish that you could take care of
I think you're capable of that

So don't self-destruct, please do not erupt, I know it's hard
Just look deep inside, give it a try, and try again until you die
The only way to cause minimal pain is to change
You gotta change, and keep on changing
Until you're proud of the person
You are when you wake up in the morning

You won't feel sad, you won't be angry
You won't be bitter, even if you're in pain
You'll just feel grateful, 'cause even when you're in pain
Things look better when you look outward
At all the people that you could love
All the people that you will love
All the pool parties you haven't been to yet
All the board game nights you haven't been to yet
All the karaoke bars you haven't been to yet

But you'll never know if you give up now
You might never know what it's like
To be wholly, completely, totally
Engulfed by the love of people that have no
Obligation to see you, no obligation to treat you so well
But they still do it, 'cause when they see you
They see a person that would do the same for them too