Empty House

There's a small way
That takes me into nothing babe
It just shows me
A door into the dark
And I flick on
The flickering light above the cot
And inside
I see the pure future

We can't leave
Nothing but a legacy
But we can't believe
Our life is just finite
So we build walls
Around our planning and our scars
And we hold off
On building foundations

As the house falls
Endless crumbling blocks of dust
Spiral down
As I spiral up
I can't live
Inside a house empty like this
Let me build bliss
Le me love and just live

So when the clock ticks
I sit in my room count the clicks
Of my pulse
Two fingers on my neck
I'm unwell
Blood pressures too high to tell
If it's the drink or
The stresses of this hell

And I drink
Too much
I say it so I'm never taught
I don't have
To change
If I'm fully aware
That's the problem
My excuse is endless and forgotten
I'm just a log
Floating to its doom

As the water falls
I think of all the times I taught
Myself
To sing
To teach my Love to be
In my arms
To lay down and to sing my songs
To Be Alone
To Be Alone With me

Sing for me
When all is over sing for me
Legacy
Build a legacy
I wanna have kids
I wanna leave something in this shit
Behind, to live
A life I could never have
Please live the life I could never have