Survival

I built a prison out of my decisions
And I can't help but feeling manipulative
As if pain isn't something that's real enough
All I know is that I don't deserve this

The cost of what I've done is straining us
Trying to help me is draining us
Why can't you just let me die
All I am is living darkness

Suck it up
Deal with it
You're fine
What happened to that

If I'm fine why did I do it then
Maybe I just wanted to hurt you
How do I convince myself
That none of this is true

My problems aren't real to me
I'm not very close with reality
I could have just not had these problems
What's the point of trying to help me

Maybe I really am living with this
Maybe it's just 'cause I wanted it
I could have just fixed myself
Well at least I wish I could

Suck it up
Deal with it
You're fine
What happened to that

If I'm fine why did I do it then
Maybe I just wanted to hurt you
How do I convince myself
That none of this is true

If I'm fine why did I do it then
Maybe I just wanted to hurt you
How do I convince myself
That none of this is true



Credits
Writer(s): Queer Punk
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