4th of July (Live)

She was on fire and wild and American
She burns it out probably just because she can
And if I had a dollar for everything I should have said
I'd probably still be busted I would throw it all away again
Lightning bugs light up all across the southern sky
Some guys get it all and they don't even need to try

I watched you roll away, you didn't even say goodbye
And now I hate the night and I'm guessing that's the reason why
This, this is my life, on the 4th of July
It isn't much, but at least it's mine
I got in my van, I ended up in Boston
Thought about my friends and how easily I'd lost them
I'd do it all again, I'd leave everyone exhausted
Some folks get a break, me I never got one
I thought of you at night when I would drink too much
If you thought about me too, you never tried to get in touch
Went back to school and I ran into some guys I knew
We started up this band, but we couldn't seem to get it through
We got some gigs, eventually we lost that too
Did you ever think that maybe if you're not happy it's because of you?
This, this is my life, on the 4th of July
It isn't much, but at least it's mine
I got a job selling ads for magazines, at night when I would play
I would think about her constantly
Everything I loved had somehow got away from me
Suicide, I talked about it openly
I finally quit, or maybe I got fired, I don't know
It doesn't matter just as long as it happened though
I added up the fears and doubts I'd been living with
Songs of lightning bugs and school and work and all that shit

This, this is my life, on the 4th of July
It isn't much, but at least it's mine
I lost the girl, some time, and a couple friends
Small talk and parties I never could stomach it
I'm old enough to say that I remember when
But I don't have the time for your nostalgia or your criticisms
You live and learn, and me well I've learned to let go
Of parents and bosses and people who don't want you to grow
I think that anything you want to, you could do
And no one's gonna tell us just who the hell we should be singing to
This, this is my life, on the 4th of July
It isn't much, but at least it's mine, I know what's mine
This, this is my life, on the 4th of July
It ain't so much, but at least it's mine