Sinking Ink

I can't write no more, lost sight of the score
Before I knew what happened, I saw you were at my side no more
But don't ignore that there were times before
I lied to all the others that had seen you
When rhymes were born and I just had to steal you. I need you!
And I knew that I would have to leave you behind someday
But anyway, I never knew that day would have to come today
You see, you seemed to know me better than I could ever know myself
Spelling out the words before they came into my head
Regretfully, I let you go without a thought or without a goodbye
Every night while you lay patiently, sitting by the bedside
And you read my life on paper, wrote diaries alongside me
Heard me thinking quietly when I looked at you blindly knew
That you'd never two-time me with other rappers
Stayed loyal 'til the moment that you died and that's what matters!
I felt knackered when I paid you no attention
Descending into next dimensions going out with friends and then
Feeling the frustration when you weren't there for me
Looking out for you frantically, searching the settee
I look through pages with cloudy memories
Of how they came to be the shades of me, written by you easily
And suddenly it was though you began to breathe
In a whispering moment, brought on by fatigue, I'm just dreaming
And I can't deny that I'll forget you, someday when I've replaced
Yet I never could erase you, remember that!
Without you, my thoughts cannot breathe
You absorb all the words I receive
The times that we've been through, the moments we've shared
Any rhyme, any time, anywhere!
How many bars you seen? I can't perceive the life you lead
spent time looking down at you while you were looking up to me
I was like "what we gonna do?" You were like "trust I'll make you see, just in me"
Better then are we, never crossed my mind that this would be. Spent these
Last few minutes, all I did was torture you
Didn't do what I should ought to do
Stealing all the life source from you. Let you
Out the cell, you're living well but what's the trend?
Little bit of freedom felt by you then it's back behind the bars again
And all you did was lend my hand a friend
Conduct the flow, my mind don't spin
I got no man to rhyme to. You were always listening
Now I'm missing them old times, dropping rhymes from in the trees
You were like my silent company
Didn't ever think that you would leave and now it's me
I think of all the wrong I've done to you. Never you screw
Some time we'd lose, but that was always me & you
And you were never insignificant, instrumental in my craft
Labour and hard graft, conduit for my art
Like a split from my half, so in tune with my heart
Like when we depart feels like I've lost my arm
Stained my garms once or twice. But that's the life we chose to live
All I did was take what you would give, life's blood spilt to spit my gift, listen...
Please forgive for what I did, it wasn't nice. Tell me everything's alright
And let's forget them lonely nights with no lights
And I know these man just think that it's absurd, but they never heard
That it was you behind my every word!
There's been many a time when I needed you around
And I looked real hard and it was you that I found
Sometimes in your black dress and, others, in your blue
To the lines and to me, you'll always stay true!
We wrote rhymes together, all the time whatever
But never again, nobody lasts forever
Holding you between my fingers every night
And all that lingered was the site of another one that had bitten the dust
If not you then who can I trust to help me say what I must?
My bloodlust, gotten in the way of what was us
No love lost, no more hearts to crush!
Without you, my thoughts cannot breathe
You absorb all the words I receive
The times that we've been through, the moments we've shared
Any rhyme, any time, anywhere!