8th April Thoughts

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Aw damn
Yeah, I wrote that shit way back then
8th April
Damn, time flies

I'm on my road and I think about what happened
I didn't get what's goin' on, I was absent
I was outside, thinkin' everything's alright
Didn't know that my mama started crying late night
During day light, it all seems okay
But that shows the two different faces of a day
And on my way, I started thinkin' 'bout that day
It brought me to the planes right now this is where I stay
Drinkin' out my can watchin' planes takin' off
I took my time to share my thoughts with the ones that I love
Tell me how many rain drops can you see out there
Count it times two that's how much I love you mom I swear
I don't know where it started
Maybe it was the first time you were broken hearted
My brother left our house I don't really know why
If I would've asked you both then I think you would've lied
Mama cried, and daddy sat beside you
If he would cry, tell me mama what would you do
Mama cries, and daddy sits beside you
If he would cry, no, daddy never cried
I never thought that it would take us out the 14
Got so many memories even way back before teen
A new story tryna make it sound better
It didn't come better but we always stay together
Forever and ever, we never say never
Hope is what holds us together, we ride on together
This the fuckin' letter, I just hope you understand
These times may be hard and we don't know how it ends
Who cares about what comes?
All we got is right now
Fight for us, and come roll with me right now
This our time now, hold my hand and come with me
Trust me if I say we'll make it, yeah we're family
But we still here, lil brother steps out
Disappointed mom and dad, and I know what it's about
Tell me how can you work if you never get love
You always blame him, that's why he is pissed off
He plays in his room, he tryna get space
And you ask me why he got problems talkin' face to face?
We're sittin' at the dinner table lookin' at each other
Brother knows what comes: bad news from my mother
He always fears dinner 'cause he don't want you yellin'
I think he already stopped listening to what you're tellin'
Let's talk about dad, do you remember last summer
I'll never forget that day and I tell you that I wonder
How dad was stayin' cool when you walked away
We thought you came back but you walked away
Many many miles to grandmother's home town
You never came back because you were still feelin' down
1000 missed calls, daddy almost cried
Where are you mama, we don't know where you hide
Sometimes we laugh together, sometimes I cry alone
I would die for you all even shit is goin' on, man

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I still think about this shit sometimes
Maybe that's the reason why I'm smokin' weed sometimes
It got me thinkin' positive when I'm in need sometimes
And Imma tell my kids when I'm gon' leave some time
I don't even wanna talk about the day
It hurt too much to see my mama leave and go away
She didn't even want it
One year, yeah she didn't even want it
Damn

I love you mama