Elysian Fields

You always swore to me, you'd only admire the sky from afar
(Rather than leave)
With the clouds beyond the moon and stars

Up there is such an empty place
So open and vague and the fact that it gave you hope
It showed on your face

Now it's so real to me

Were you so lost in emptiness that hope became a foreign phrase
Diluted and forgotten in the endless daze

I never knew how much hate a heart could hold
A constant obsession with death and depression marked you astray
Took you away but I still feel your
Loneliness like every day in the worst way
I'm drowning in the thoughts and the memories
I'm sinking in your absence, in your passing

I found you in a room saying words I thought you never meant

Quite the sight for sore eyes, isn't it?
Watching my stability fall apart
Highlighting my imperfections as a work of art
I just don't think I can make things work like they did before
This comatose state won't be ignored

I'm sorry you were so lost and empty that hope became a foreign phrase
But I won't forget you for the rest of my days

I never knew how much hate a heart could hold
A constant obsession with death and depression marked you astray
Took you away but I still feel your
Loneliness like every day in the worst way
I'm drowning in the thoughts and the memories
I'm sinking in your absence, in your passing

On your deathbed
You left your final words and they read

My world's become an empty place
Void of comfort, I felt death's embrace
With open arms, I fell back
I want to see the black
I want to see the black