R (Lush)

I wish I could find time and stop
Stop every plot
To take every clock and have run and never stop
I would go back to a time
Where everything was just fine
Where we weren't just confined by what we hold deep inside
Now I
Think every time I blink
My train of thought is lost and you're the missing link
Now my heart just stops
Stomach is full of rocks
Pulling me towards the bottom of the ocean of thought
It's hot
Fuel is always added to the pot
When I pass where we spent all of our time, it's a lot
Our time got slated, and I hope that I'm not hated
But even if I stuck around would we even have dated
I needed to leave, so my life, I would not take it
So I'm sorry that I parted
Since we grew distant through college
Plus the distance, I didn't want you to put it on your mileage
I'm far and I'm distant and I'm missin' you it's honest
Dealin' with this shit is getting harder than onyx
I'm full of flaws but I promise
When you feel tattered and old I'll make you feel designer
When you're low I wanna make you feel so much higher
Yell it from roofs like Desiigner

(Lost, in, this, world
Saved, by, one, pearl
Bell, rings, class, ends
Alarm, goes, that dream, again)

Uh
I know it's too good to be true
For it to just be me and you
That dream was just so good
It's like the feeling was so new
Ooo
It's just you
And me
In a room, us three
Cause the elephant is obvious I'm still kinda childish (uh)
I still have a lot of insecurities that I ain't even yet harnessed (yet)
A lot of lonely feelings that I haven't even yet parted (with)
That shit keeps me in check
And I ain't cash that shit yet
I don't want a quarter back if I lent you a Ben (nah)
Can't keep yourself in tact, take a hike then (yah)
Then again, I'd just follow you, like a dog, til the end
I'm too loyal
That's why they walk on my eggshells, on needles and pins
So as I sit and I listen to Bino play
I contemplate of a day were we (way)
Can be more than just acquaintances (says)
More like friends that have fallen from grace
So I change the pace
You want it slow, okay
Now you want some space
So I back off like confronted with mace
I let you do you, I dig your independence, either way
There's a, lot of grey
I have one question to say
So, yeah, are we still friends, anyway?

(Lost, with, this, pearl
Trapped, in, a lonely, world
Bell, rings, class, ends
Damn, I had, that dream, again)

So,
What's the dealio
Are you just gonna go
I just gotta know
Why our whole life just froze
Hypothermia, you're cold
From your shoulders to your stares
Texts left on read, it's unfair
What I thought was right left me blue instead
So I'm red in the face staring at this white wall
So I haul and pack my emotions in a trunk
Place it in a black room where there's no light and it falls
From thought
(Falls from thought
Lush)