Not To

I met you five years ago
I sang you a song I wrote
About the time I lost my job
You gave in to time and greed
And I gave in to simpler means
You told me nothing then took off

So i always tell myself not to love you
I always tell myself that we've been down this road before
I always tell myself not to love you
Truth is that i know we need something more

Time, she hides a ticking temper
But it's not love that we remember
It's a blissful habit overused
The past can not recreated
So instead we end up jaded
Both not the person the other knew

So i always tell myself not to love you
I always tell myself that we've been down this road before
I always tell myself not to love you
Truth is that i know we need something more

And I pretend that all is well
Can you tell I tell myself
Not to love you
Not to love you
But I do
The choice to love and not to love
Is something I don't have the luxury of
So if you could hear me please let me go
At the very least just let me know
Because I'm tired of always having just a little bit of hope

So i always tell myself not to love you
I always tell myself that we've been down this road before
I always tell myself not to love you
Truth is that i know we need something more

I pretend that all is well
But how long can i tell myself
Not to love you
Not to love you
When I do
When I do
Not gonna love you anymore