It's Come to This

And I found my head uncrowned, and all life's sweet nectar flowing down
The cracks and seams wasted on some petty little prayers, and I
Reached up for despair, but I was well below that cherished stage
And all my mangled hopes, all songs unsung

I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Everything is faded
Smiles are fabricated, and now
I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Held my eyes closed for too long

And I ran out through the streets in hopes that I might find it there, but
All my buildings stared back at me tenantless and bare, and I
Reached up for the sky, but it always seemed so far away, and
Transcendent thoughts you gave lie atrophied and broken

I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Everything is faded
Smiles are fabricated, and now
I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Held my eyes closed for too long

And I sat when I shoulda stood, and swallowed when I shoulda spit, but
Now I only recognize me in pictures taken long ago, and
All the changes simply haunt and never go away
A friend will tell when I hit Hell; I may not feel the change

And held my eyes closed for too long, mm-uh
And held my eyes closed for too lo-ong

Just before I go, don't you offer any sweet advice, 'cause
Where were all your shoulders when I needed them so long ago? And
Now, with legs weak and weary from this silly dance
Suitcase full of memories, I pack my bags and slowly drift away