Failsafe

It's so unlike me, not to be like me
In a room full of strangers
People with anger, most of them haters
Half of them look at me like I owe em a favor
And they got compliments, and they so conscious
To know what all I deserve
Well I hope with thee utmost respect you accept my 4 words
Shut the fuck up
Goddamn it, I'm tired of this
I'm 3 seconds from honesty
I'm 2 seconds from lashing out
1 second jumping out of a chair with life around my neck
To see if my dream catch me now
A leap of faith
Will I down come down or will i die?
Close my eyes and trust in God
To survive, what are the odds he'll let me fall?

Will I die?
Will I fade the same as my clothes?
When I know, that I'm great
I'ma take this world to my grave
Will I fall, and let fear get in the way?
Was this all a big mistake?
I can never be replaced

There's something inside of me
Tearing me apart, trying to get out of me
I'm seeing things
Call up a doctor, I need a lobotomy
I'm not an anomaly, more like an oddity, ain't no surprising me
Feel like I'm leveling up to the monster inside me
Call me the prodigy
I feel like I'm living an ayahuasca trip
What happened to all of my oxygen?
I feel like the air I'm breathing getting thick
And everybody's face is starting to shape-shift
My eyes is dripping and my ears is hearing voices
Nothing seems real, just a bunch of weird noises
Hooked to a machine called augmented reality
Can't pull the plug on this one it's cordless
This is dangerous, I never thought it would've came to this
But when I'm at the bottom and I've become forsaken
People always on some fake shit
Treated me like hell, I paid for the vacation
Y'all amazing
So many nights I cried
So many nights I wanted to quit, and almost ended my life for this

Will I die?
Will I fade the same as my clothes?
When I know, that I'm great
I'ma take this world to my grave
Will I fall, and let fear get in the way?
Was this all a big mistake?
I can never be replaced

I know
There's something
Going on inside of me
Going on inside of (Going on inside of)
Going on inside of (Going on inside of)
Going on inside of me

I know
There's something
Going on inside of me
Going on inside of (Going on inside of)
Going on inside of (Going on inside of)
Going on inside of me

What make can a nigga wanna fight?
What can make somebody wanna take somebody else life twice?
What can make somebody wanna hate?
When we all the same, just a different shade
What can make somebody get high that they can't feel shit
Can't feel love, can't recognize who they really is?
What can make a kid full of rage?
Tired of being told to be someone different every fucking day
They gone have to crucify me, next to Ozzy
Hell or high water, bring the best up out of me
Not giving a fuck, takes the pressure off me
Let my soul talk, God do the rest without me
The power inside me, you can't rob me
Are we living to die cause we've been through hell?
Or we dying to live, and not afraid to fail?
I'll tell you why the fuck I'm here

I know, there's something
Going on inside of (Going on inside of)
Going on inside of (Going on inside of)
Going on inside of me

I know, there's something
Going on inside of (Going on inside of)
Going on inside of (Going on inside of)
Going on inside of me