I Want It, What I Wanted

You can see I'm struggling
It's starting to feel like I'm stuck
I want it, what I wanted
When I felt like I was standing at the summit of the highest mountain
And free time is more hard-won freedom
I take for granted and I never use well
I want it, what I wanted
When I felt like inspiration wasn't trickling but a flowing fountain

But I've made it out this far
I've always faced it all
I've found my way through some trying days
And all I want is more

It's a good thing I'm so ready
Because this is the year I sink or swim
I want it, what I wanted
When I knew that healthcare that I
could afford was something I could count on
And this time,
I don't even know if I can really
tell myself that everything will be okay
I want it, what I wanted
When I knew that my own voice
singing inside my head was pleasant sounding

But I've made it out this far
I've always faced it all
I've found my way through some trying days
And all I want is more

Because give me one clear shot
Make it and win, or miss and lose big
And I'll blow it off to binge watch shows so bad they make me cringe
Better to get me on a train with a notebook and no phone
En route to somewhere where I can sing this song all night
And I'll effortlessly find and clear the hurdles in my mind

I'll beg if I have to
I know that you can't write a fairy tale for me
I want it, what I wanted
When I said that this was something I
was going to do with help or without it
And this takes time, but we're not immortal,
so how can we ever know how much we really have to spare?
I want it, what I wanted
When I said it's always possible
that I could fail, but I still doubt it



Credits
Writer(s): Amanda Rose Riley
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