I'm Not "Supposed" to Be Anything

I used to get angry
Goddamn I used to get so angry
I used to punch things, break things
It really used to fucking scare me

I used to be so lonely
I used to be so unhappy
I drowned myself in wine
I don't wanna feel anything

I drowned myself in wine
Don't wanna feel anything
I drowned myself in wine
I used to be so unhappy

I used to go to college
I was gonna be a physicist
It goes undergrad, masters, PhD
I'll see you in 12 years

But now I'm a drop out
I guess I'll never make my mom proud
But I am pretty proud of what I'm doing with my life now
I am pretty proud of how I live my life now
And I will not feel bad
That I'm living for myself now

And I have learned
To stop measuring my self-worth
By the standards set by a culture that I want no part of
If I had stayed on the path that they had made
Well I don't know if I would have survived it

So now I am not lonely
Cause I have found a community
Of folks who won't let this culture tell them
Who they are supposed to be

And I feel angry
It's cause this system that's obsessed with productivity
Has tried to tell us that the value of a human can be measured
In spreadsheets
Told the boys to be strong and not to cry
Told the girls to just shut the fuck up

But we won't shut the fuck up
We will kick and scream till you stop telling us who we're
Supposed to be
Cause I'm not supposed to be anything
But I am closer everyday to the person that I wanna be