Desperation

I'm trying to make sense of the nonsense
So light the incense, see what God says
That's prayer, when it's put up in the air
Feel like it's cut up by the ceiling fan as I look up in despair
Are you there? Cause I'm here
Are you leaving me in tears
Cause you teaching a thing or two
Teaching me that fear
Is the spirit I've been clinging to
Hands high in the air
Instead of claiming what your Spirit gives
Power, love and discipline
Father are you listening
Father are you listening
Father are you listening
So when you plan on visiting
And then you came through, I feel so shameful
Done this so many times, I blame myself for my pain but I blame you cause I feel it
Man, forgiveness ain't an anesthetic
Now I gotta lay in the bed that I made
I know God forgive and also forget it
He'll remove the stitches, but the scar remains
Sometimes I rage on, no Rondo
But I wanna stay calm and humble
Taught me how to pray on cause God knows
Ask Reymon, that's Carlos.
Shout out to the men who stuck with us
Prayed for us and sprayed with us like fragrance dealers
That's praise and prayer, fragrant aroma
For the Creator, Jehovah
I'm saved cause I know Him

Anybody out there? Anybody upstairs? Anybody close by
What I gotta do to feel your presence? Fast 'til the sun falls? Pray with some closed eyes
Oh my, oh my, crying out to you, oh my
Time and time again, feel like I'm watching time just go by
Shades on, staring at the sun glaring, where were you for the miscarriage
When the doctor and his practice practiced malpractice, could've been more proactive
Could've shown up like, "What's happening?" Or at least tried
You said be fruitful and multiply
We were just trying to solve the equation but the womb was vacant
Aren't you the Lord that left the tomb vacant? Can't you see my wife and I been patient
Desperate prayer got us asking, "Are you there? Are you there? Are you there
Do you even care what our pain feels like? Images playing in our brains at night
I'mma ask like, "Do we got the right? Do we got the right? Do we got the right? Do we got the right
Had a name in mind, hoping for a boy name Lucas but we don't get to choose this
Threw us for a loop like do a u-turn cause ain't nothing here for you to follow through with
When the glory fades, you can see the story change
Like you got nothing left and little hope remains
But Hope reminds, Hope sees all, Hope ain't blind or dead, Hope's alive
Who you think made the earth and sky? Laid the down the foundation then stretched the line
Who tells morning to wake up and night to sleep
Whole world in my hand like a mic to speak, listen
Have you entered the springs of the sea
Have you walked in the recesses of the deep
You understand that I lived as a man
I can relate to you, can you relate to me

Forgive me, Lord
I'm desperate in my prayer, crying woe is me
Forgive me, Lord
For not trusting in the care you have over me
Forgive me, Lord
I'm desperate in my prayer, crying woe is me
Forgive me, Lord
For not trusting in the care you have over me

I won't cry no more
I won't cry no more
Dry my eyes and set them on Christ my Lord
Dry my eyes and set them on Christ my Lord
You know everything, know every season I'm in
And you have made it all beautiful in your timing
So I will trust in you, lean not on me
Cause what I've been through
Ain't got a thing on what you've been through
I'm so afraid of what I'll turn into
If I'm not trusting in you, trusting in you
So I'm trusting in you, trusting in you