The Real Goodbye

I'm trying not to think about it
I've been doing things that I know I shouldn't do
Like keeping track of days when I shouldn't count 'em
I've been losing sleep but nothing is like losing you
I bet you're thinking that I'm doing better now
Wish that was the case
Still in the same old place
There's still a lot of clothes that you have here
Should I throw them all away?
Do i keep it just in case you, come, back
Maybe you'll come back
Realistically I know it's not a good chance
Why, do I hang onto a future that I can't have,
That I won't have

And it makes me, wonder, did I do all that I can?
Or did I let go too fast
I'm still trying to understand

But I'm sitting in my room drawing blanks

I know when it's time
When talking doesn't make it right
I say that I'm fine
But nothing in my world feels fine
You can tell that I'm lying
When I say you are not on my mind
It's different this time

Cos the feeling doesn't feel so right
So it's finally the real goodbye

I'm trying hard to think straight
You don't even know how much you got a hold on me
Is it normal to feel out of place?
Even in a room filled with everyone you know
I'm putting up an act in front of everyone
I know they see you but they understand I need my space
I don't talk about it
They don't want to talk about it too
I tell them I don't wanna hear nothing 'bout you til I'm ready
I don't even know when that'll be

Do you understand you're the half of me
And now I gotta learn all over again
How it feels like without you in my bed

And this might sound strange

But waiting is an option that I'm willing to take
Right now I'm accepting the fact
That maybe it's too late
And I'm being replaced

Cos I know when it's time
When talking doesn't make it right
I say that I'm fine
But nothing in my world feels fine

You can tell that I'm lying
When I say you are not on my mind
It's different this time
Cos the feeling doesn't feel so right
So it's finally the real goodbye

Cos I know when it's time
When talking doesn't make it right
And I say that I'm fine
But nothing in my world feels fine
You can tell that I'm lying
When I say you are not on my mind
It's different this time
Cos the feeling doesn't feel so right
So it's finally the real goodbye