Drinking Again (feat. Angie Citlali)

Letters overseas making sure the fam's good
Ration MREs wishing for some canned goods
Mom sent me a post card, and damn look
My daughters hands so large, and she can stand, I'm shook
I never planned missing these opportunities
My ex-wife got to know the whole community
She probably found a new man
Maybe topping than three
There I'm stressing again
I pop two of these
Alcohol would hold me over in the brick
But my Sergeant say
That she ain't worth a diamond or a cent
But I wonder if he value himself
From where he's been
Cause he hasn't seen his kids
In some years
I don't depend on her tears
To keep her confident
I sent home all of my medals
Thinking maybe I could save it with accomplishments
But when I'm thinking at post
It don't accomplish shit
Just imagining everything that I've missed

Its's that shit that got me drinking again
And again, and again and again and again
Its's that shit that got me drinking again
Always complicating every situation
Memories displaced, I've been impatient
That's the shit that got me caught in the end.the end the end

We are born with depression
Let that set in like a hollow tip
Feelings over-pressed
Like lips full of collagen
No matter who she swallowing
I picture bigger issues
Like PG-7-AT Chinese missiles
Ain't no time for brittle emotions
When posted overseas
But when the push is over
And you're home is when sow it's seed
Caught a C-17 over to Germany
Transferred back to Cali
Caught a taxi to the valley
Tried to catch her at her parents
They greet me with disgust
Mistrust and its apparent
Seen the belly of the lady that a cherish
So embarrassed
I been gone for two years
Left right after the marriage
I walked out that second to take a breath
And comprehend
I should have walked away for good, right
Common sense
Then I wonder if a value myself
Looking back at where I've been
What I valued was hell

Its's that shit that got me drinking again
And again, and again and again and again
Its's that shit that got me drinking again
Always complicating every situation
Memories displaced, I've been impatient
That's the shit that got me caught in the end... the end the end

I'm all alone, stoned in Tiajuana
Hit the Coco Bongo
In attempt to circumvent my trauma
All I wanna do is talk
But you don't understand
A damn word that I'm saying
Back off
Another shot please
Mi necessito whisky
Bartender get this chick away
Before I fucking flip
Truth is I don't know what truth is
So Lord please forgive me
I've been lying to myself
They say that honesty will set you free
But I honestly feel I'm conquored
I ponder my next step
Like liquor make me stronger
Maybe death is a choice
Chosen by the voiceless
I never heard a void come out of that noise
I used to claim I avoided all the estranged games
To battle myself
But I don't wanna battle this hell

Its's that shit that got me drinking again
And again, and again and again and again
Its's that shit that got me drinking again
Always complicating every situation
Memories displaced, I've been impatient
That's the shit that got me caught in the end... the end the end