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Star gazing
Late night conversations
Imagining what it would be like to be rich and famous
Practicing in front of an audience that's deaf and faceless
Remote's a microphone
Bedrooms are stages
Not too long ago I used to think of sex as sacred
But I've been fucking so much lately I don't even taste it
And I believe in God, but I wonder if He has faith in
Our existence here of does He cry from our creation
Nightmares of my childhood being taken
Birthed a traumatizing fear of humiliation
Pissed off inside but silent 'cause I am just waiting
For you to speak first, too stubborn for communication
And way too paranoid for anyone to see me naked
Without the armor that I wear to prevent invasion
When the end does come, it'll be long awaited
'Cause all you have is your word and your reputation

Now I was hoping you would see the way I see but if you don't then that is fine by me
'Cause I was hoping that we'd become everything we said we'd be but hey it's fine by me

And I put that on everything
False realities and promises of wedding rings
Got us fighting for what never was. We never seem
To count the blessings that in front us, we let it be
I always thought as long as I had you next to me
There would never be another thing I'd ever need
Fooled me once, replaying everything you said to me
I refuse to let another get to me, I ain't going

And I put that on God
Didn't think we'd even make it this far
But I doubt that we gon find our way
And I know that I will be ok
I just learned you should never drop the guard
Everybody isn't meant to see your scars
Some people only see your face
Before they turn around and walk away
Even then, I was praying and was

Hoping you would see the way I see but if you don't then that is fine by me
And I was hoping that we'd become everything we said we'd be but hey it's fine by me