Life as a Mouse

Aye, aye yo can you turn it up a little bit?
I can't really hear that.
God damn, damn it's 5 in the morning,
5 in the mornin' I been up all night, all night for this album.
Sleepless nights, you know what I'm sayin'?
Used to it though.
You can see it in my eyes I've been demonized,
they say he ain't speakin' lies he just speak his mind.
I've been locked up in this room,
never leave my house, trapped in my mind, caged like a mouse.
You can see it in my eyes I've been demonized,
they say he ain't speakin' lies he just speak his mind.
I've been locked up in this room,
never leave my house, trapped in my mind, caged like a mouse.
I feel bad when I think about me,
and all the bad things that I wear proudly and
everybody says that I'm fine and they love me.
But they never call me, so it's really fuck me.
Maybe it's because I didn't graduate, yeah I got my GED.
I ain't wanna have to wait, I left school at 17,
put my Mom through hell and back she never
gave up on me, but she could've turned her back.
Everybody in my family all question the sanity,
askin' on why she would let me do that now she mad at me.
All about the change, how come I ain't on the radio?
I just tell em' chill, I'm still workin', I ain't made it though.
They all turn their back,
make me think I'm trash,
take a shit on every single song I send they ass.
They don't like the words,
they don't think it's neat,
they ain't really listening they just hearing beats.
Yeah they hate I'm dreaming I just think they reason
is they don't know who I am and they can't believe it.
In my head I'm screaming, lost and barely breathing,
all I wanted was support they just became my demons.
You can see it in my eyes I've been demonized,
they say he ain't speakin' lies he just speak his mind.
I've been locked up in this room,
never leave my house, trapped in my mind, caged like a mouse.
You can see it in my eyes I've been demonized,
they say he ain't speakin' lies he just speak his mind.
I've been locked up in this room,
never leave my house, trapped in my mind, caged like a mouse.
I chose the hardest path, but did it choose me?
My girl scared because she don't wanna lose me.
I feel sick, chest pains I got blue feet.
Cold sweats, chills,
and it's hard to breathe every night can't sleep, I get nightmares.
Closed eyes, switchin' sides,
seein' my fears, is it dreamin' or reality?
Which one is it actually?
Or shit maybe both is what it has to be,
I ain't understand prescriptions till' I had some,
I ain't understand addictions till' I had one,
I ain't understand depression till' it grabbed me.
Me and anxiety walk together gladly.
Me and sadness link on the weekends.
Suicidal thoughts are with me till' the weekends.
Insecurities and silence be the death of me.
Loneliness and isolation got the rest of me.
But the one thing I'll never understand is why I can't quit
when I always say I can, and how I'm always sad for one main reason
Is all I wanted was support but all I got was demons.
You can see it in my eyes I've been demonized,
they say he ain't speakin' lies he just speak his mind.
I've been locked up in this room,
never leave my house, trapped in my mind, caged like a mouse.
You can see it in my eyes I've been demonized,
they say he ain't speakin' lies he just speak his mind.
I've been locked up in this room,
never leave my house, trapped in my mind, caged like a mouse.