An Evening I Will Not Forget / Furthest Thing

When love was found
I kept my hope just like I hoped to
I sang to the sea for feelings deep blue
Coming down
When we've had problems that we've grown through
But I bet you dream of what you could do

At seventeen I was alright
Was like nothing I could feel inside
And wishing you were here tonight is like holding on
But I still get to see your face, right?
And that's like nothing they can take, right?
So there won't be no feeling in the firelight
Hoping this will be right
Time to show your worth, child

I remember when her heart broke over stubborn shit
That's no way to be living, kid
The angel of death is ruthless
And I'm always thinking
Summertime with the bikes out
Pushing our luck getting wiped out
Days with nothing, but laughing loud

Underneath my coat, when you tap my shoulder, hold my hand
Nights with nothing, but dark in there
You could be my armour then
Island smiles and cardigans
The nights that we've been drinking in
We're here to help you kill
All of this hurt that you've been harboring

Confessions should be better planned
Alone that night, I'm surely damned
Run away and I'll understand it
What's important is this evening I will not forget
Purple, blue, orange, red
These colors of feeling
Give me love, I'll put my heart in it
And I think about it all the time
Lights went out, you were fine
You kinda struggled not to shine

I still love you though
I still love you though
I still love you, always
So hold me when I'm home
Keep the evenings long
Crack and break and part ways

I still love you though
I still love you though
I still love you always
So hold me when I'm home
Keep the evenings long
Let's not crack and break and part ways
And I wonder if I can let her down

Somewhere between psychotic and iconic
Somewhere between I want it and I got it
Somewhere between I'm sober and I'm lifted
Somewhere between a mistress and commitment

But I stay down
Girl, I always stay down
Get down, never lay down
Promise her break everybody off
Before I break down
Everyone just wait now
So much on my plate now

People I believed in
They don't even show their face now
What they got to say now?
Nothing they can say now
Nothing really changed
But still they look at me away now
What more can I say now?
What more can I say now?
You might feel like nothing was the same

And I still been drinking on the low
Mobbing on the low
Fucking on the low
Smoking on the low
And I still been plotting on the low
Scheming on the low
Furthest thing from perfect
Like everyone I know, yeah

And I hate that you don't think I belong to you
Just too busy running this to run home to you
You know the paper my passion
Bittersweet celebrations
I know I can't change what happened
I can't help it, I can't help it
I was young and I was selfish
I made every woman feel like she were mine and no one else's

Now you hate me, stop pretending
Stop fronting, I can't take it
Girl, don't treat me like a stranger
Girl, you know I've seen you naked
Girl, you know that I remember
Don't be a pretender

Getting high at the condo
That's when it all comes together
You know I stay reminiscing
The makeup sex is tradition
But you've been missing girl
You might feel like nothing was the same

And I've still been drinking on the low
Mobbing on the low
Fucking on the low
Smoking on the low
And I've still been plotting on the low
Scheming on the low
Furthest thing from perfect
And I wonder if I can let her down

It's for real, it's for real

It's for real, it's for real