Too Long, Too Short

I've never had, someone so pure, pretty and anxious, happy and insecure
I've never been so scared of something so good, but I'll keep my head up like you always knew I would

I'll keep my eyes set on the sun and hope I won't go blind
I'll keep my eyes set on your love, hope I won't lose my mind

With vision sculpted, I've been sleeping six feet off the ground for two years now

But it's not looking to work out anytime soon
I don't know if I made the right choice
Am I moving towards something or am I stuck in-between plan A and plan B?
Self-doubt's the language I know how to speak
Is there a cure for my indecision?
Withering away is my only conviction

I've never had, someone so pure, pretty and anxious, happy and insecure
I've never been so scared of something so good, but I'll keep my head up like you always knew I would

I'll keep my eyes set on the sun and hope I won't go blind
I'll keep my eyes set on your love, hope I won't lose my mind

And you know, the hardest part of moving forward is fact that the past reels you back in
Time and time again you'll find yourself at the crossroads asking
Does the pain of staying outweigh your fear of leaving?
For it is in this moment that you'll ask yourself
"Have I hurt more than I've helped?"
"Am I worth more here than I am gone?"
"Can I reverse the damage I've done?"
When the heat rises and blood boils you'll find the answer to your questions
And before you know it, you'll walk out that door with a grin across your face, never to return

I've never had, someone so pure, pretty and anxious, happy and insecure
I've never been so scared of something so good, but I'll keep my head up like you always knew I would

I'll keep my eyes set on the sun and hope I won't go blind
I'll keep my eyes set on your love, hope I won't lose my mind

I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me the most and I'm sorry
I couldn't be the reason for you to stay
The pain you held: too long
The time we had: too short