What I Call My Home

See I sleep in a house but I don't even have a home
On the run again but I don't know where to go
The issues all keep pushing me past the edge of the cliff
I'm mentally deranged but I've never taken a whiff
It makes me bend backwards like I'm in a game of limbo
I stay stuck in between feeling as dumb as a bimbo
Losing control, like I popped a tire on the limo
And I just keep on falling deeper and deeper in limbo
But I gotta stay strong, like the kick and the snare on the drum
And I gotta stay strong even though life made me so numb
Pushing me around, placing my face inside of the dirt like a bully
Turnin' me into a hater, corrupting all of my good chi
I try to leave, but I keep returning to that dark place
Oddly enough I choose to run back to it with much haste
It's become so familiar to me like an A minor
So familiar to me, that I see a big 'liar'

Run away, from what I call home
Run away, from all I know
Run away, from love I lost
Run away, from pain I caused
Run away, from what I call home
Run away, from all I know
And what I, do not know
But life keeps going full circle

I'm not confident, cuz I'm not good at anything
But if I pretend I'm the best then I'd suck at everything
See I write rhymes so hard no one's gonna know what hit 'em
I write lines so dope you swear that you could sniff em
I spit this venom at people and no one has noticed what bit em
People mean so little to me I treat em like my nails and clip em
I remember saying I would die for so many past friends
But when I fast forward I see they're all dead to me in the end
I'm in my twenties but I feel like I've been in my fifties
Cruising down the road with the devil and the reaper wit me
Even my safe zone gets invaded by everything that I hate
Not even my happy place can send me on a trip so great
So I accept defeat and bury my face inside of my pillow
But I come back stronger every time after I die a little
I see the good in life like I reached the end of the rainbow
But until I reach the end of the rainbow, I'mma

Run away, from what I call home
Run away, from all I know
Run away, from love I lost
Run away, from pain I caused
Run away, from what I call home
Run away, from all I know
And what I, do not know
But life keeps going full circle

And I take a Blue's approach to all of my hate
I release my sadness on beats so others can relate
But this depression is a place that always feels like home
I love it but I wish it was a place I've never known
And I'm dying the more I stay away from the microphone
And I'm dying the more I feel like I should stay at home
Only place I want to be left inside of is a basement
But the only way I can smile is if I get a face-lift!
I keep on moving but that's cuz I don't have any where better to go
Maybe that's the reason I'm so lost in this hell hole
I block almost every strike that gets thrown my way
But even when I keep my guard up I still get cut by the blade
Is love the reason that I'm hurting or is it mental?
Is love the antidote I've been hunting or is it this pencil?
I can search all my life but I'll never find the rainbow
But how can I find it when I always hide under the rain

Run away, from what I call home
Run away, from all I know
Run away, from love I lost
Run away, from pain I caused
Run away, from what I call home
Run away, from all I know
And what I, do not know
But life keeps going full circle



Credits
Writer(s): Salomon Garcia
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