A Million Words

Led my heart into the night, I know it was a million times
That I was lost inside my head and didn't know which way I was to go
A need for time alone

Rules I taught myself to mind, I know it took a million tries
To loosen up and then really show that
I wasn't just the man you thought to own
It's not just flesh and bone

Days where I was broken down, I know there were a million ways
To light a fire in this heart a mine,
but I let it be and ended up astray
Was the worst I ever did

I don't need forgiveness on a day like this
Give me your rejection and a time to miss
A million different words that I could have said
But I just keep all quiet cause I know it's said

Blackout in the time apart, i never thought it come this far
But I was back where I started from,
with no wooden doors and no windows to the road
Where we wanted to get old

Every time I went away, I thought about you night and day
But I was caught in a rusty cage
that I got myself when I was young at age
You always thought it's strange

If things I said brought you to tears, I never meant to do you harm
And what I really do regret were the times I didn't see
And the things I never did

I don't need forgiveness on a day like this
Give me your rejection and a time to miss
A million different words that I could have said
But I just keep all quiet cause I know it's said

Tired of finding million words
To lift you up and make me hope you stay
You stay

Every time I fight the night
I think the best would be to just let go
Let go

Throw away those broken things and
take your time as you build them up again
I really hope you do

And she said
Take your heart,
your million words and all my love cause I won't be yours again
We both know your unsure

And I might miss those days,
those million times I held you close and I hoped you'd stay for good
I really thought you would

And we should
Save our souls, our hearts of gold,
not live our lives as our parents told us so
It's time to say goodbye