Never Sure

To be alone together just once again
Is something that is sure to happen sometime
If my hands can't stay on the table
And if I find myself unable
To look away from staring in your eyes
And the color of the sunrise inside
I promise that I'll hold myself together
And act like this isn't killing me

I saw you once today
I painfully watched as you looked the other way
Afraid just to notice me standing there
You would make it obvious, you don't care

I won't lie, I only love you for the heartbreak
I only love you for the give and the take
No, you know I want it

I'm in love with the thought of everything
I am lifted to a holy ground
And from up here can see a little of everything
And I can see you don't want me around
And I know how much that it makes you cringe
To think about you and I as friends
Together, forever, until the end
After that, you won't have to see me again

I won't lie, I only love you for the heartbreak
I only love you for the give and the take
No, you know I want it
And when I die, just rip my heart out from my chest
And put it in a mason jar left to rest on your bedside table

And if there's any hope alive after all
I would hold it like a newborn baby
And care for it like it was my own
Hey, you know, it looks kinda like me
And we'd still get chills every time we kiss
And I will always promise this, that to you I will never tell a lie
No, not to you
No, not to you

I won't lie, I only love you for the heartbreak
I only love you for the give and the take
No, you know I want it
And when I die, just rip my heart out from my chest
And put it in a mason jar left to rest on your bedside table
And put it in a mason jar left to rest on your bedside table