Backbone

I'm not perfect but neither are you
At least I had the decency to tell you the truth
I once felt dead inside
As if the world around me withered to ashes and died

Now there's a piece of me that's found the peace in me
No longer lost but still waiting to drown
Any second the bottom could just drop out
And I'll be back inside this blackhole

I just climbed out
Show me now what's wrong with this picture
When I've used every ounce of my strength just to get better
There's so much pressure that it's driving me insane

So here's to waking up from this terrifying dream
Cause the world around me is not as dark as it seems
I'll never say I'm sorry for being selfish
Cause I'm living my life for me

I found my backbone lost it when I was under your control
All it took was some clarity to show me I'm no longer the victim
And I swear when I get the chance, I'll walk away
I'll disappear like there's nothing left to lose

It's kind of frightening when you're frozen in time
And everything around you keeps on passing you by
The world doesn't stop because we aren't living
Take advantage of the gift, the short-term life we've been given

There is a piece of me, a fucking place in me
Where all my demons were fed with fucked up thoughts in my head
Now I can see that they were never real
As I begin to remember what it's like to feel

So here's to waking up from this terrifying dream
Cause the world around me is not as dark as it seems
I'll never say I'm sorry for being selfish
Cause I'm living my life for me

I found my backbone lost it when I was under your control
All it took was some clarity to show me I'm no longer the victim
And I swear when I get the chance, I'll walk away
I'll disappear like there's nothing left to lose

I finally found my backbone
No longer a slave to your control

I'll be gone in the blink of an eye
Vanish without saying so much as a goodbye
Someday when you find my grave
There'll be a message carved in the stone just for you

"Go fuck yourself"
"Go fuck yourself"