Trying Not to Die

Tryin' not to die
But I forget to breathe some times
And I
Pray for my enemies
That prey for me
I worry how closely
I've come to death
These things leave me weak
And time goes too fast
And I resent the dreams I have
When I
Feel like it's hard to reach my destiny (destiny)
I'm jealous of the focus that you hang on
I tend to lose myself
Mid conversation
It seems like all I feel is desperation
This has to be some type of an invasion
I need to awaken

If I could just feel again
If I could just feel again
It wouldn't be that bad
If I could just feel again

Forgot how to survive
Without the warranty of living up
I'm scared to close my eyes
Without the guarantee of waking up
Can I change the pace
Of this transformation
Let me catch my breath
Which way am I going
Thoughts of yesterday
Come back just to haunt me
Face to face

I was actin' like I ain't know
That I can't live forever
But I ain't know
That the light would come and find me
When I'm this old
My visions blurred
I can't hear and I can't move
I'm lookin' to my side
I wanna run
But how am I gon' hide
I realize there's nothing you can do
You can't run from reason
When they stay true

If I could just feel again
If I could just, if I could just
It wouldn't be that bad
If I could just feel again
If I could just feel again
If I could just feel again
It wouldn't be that bad
If I could just feel again