What Has Been Senn, Cannot Be Unseen

I can't feel a thing

We're laying side by side inside this room together
Steady pulse, yet hollowed out in this decaying process
Breathing heavy I'm content, but never satisfied
All of you was just never enough

This life, this lie, a facade
As breaths shorten and pulses fade
I cannot seem to get this out of my mind
Are we human, are we human?
Is this all that is left?
Is this all that is left of me?

God is this all that is left of me?
The urges constantly incline
I'm slowly dying over time
God is this all you have left for me?
This world has fed me complacence
Slowly dying and it's fine
God is this all that you have left for me?

She gave up everything her body had to give
Every sense of self worth
Now I know it could never be enough

Why? What have I done?
I can't bear to even look at myself right now
I've been standing over all my sin for hours on end
I need more, I need more
Exhausting every outlet of passion
I'll give in to anything just to stop the shaking
Consumed by a sinking ship in the depths of an ocean
I gasp for air as I drown in my shame
But I just can't bare to face it
God forgive me for all that I've done
Let your grace redeem my broken life
For what it's worth, this is my confession

I have witnessed and took part in the ruining
Of so many once innocent souls
I took what's left of her body
Bought and sold for next to nothing to a thousand empty souls
In hopes to fill an endless void

I have ruined all remains of a conscience
Oh God what have I become?
I took what's left of her body
Bought and sold for next to nothing to a thousand empty souls
in hopes to fill an endless void

God I am begging you,
For the sake of us all, just put an end to this
God I am crying out,
For what purity remains, just put an end to me

My existence succumbs to filth
Again and again and again

That guilt was the mark across His back
His blood covers even self inflicted wounds

By grace I am redeemed