Difficult

Sometimes life is Difficult
Sometimes you just gotta Smile
Remember to breathe
Far as me
Well

Here we go again the voices talking again
Here we go again I'm out of my mind again
By now you gotta know its true because
Who would pursue this avenue on their own free will
Every day I find a new way to kill myself
They saying I need suicide help but fuck them
I'd rather picture my death a thousand times
And put it in a million rhymes
They asking if I had enough naw
I ain't met the quota yet naw
I'm still living still breathing
I really just wanna be leaving
Long time ago I stopped believing
Cause as a kid I prayed to God to send the reaper
But as you can see he never did
What kind psychopath says some shit like that
Probably the one that don't wanna last
Or the one that wants the last laugh haha
Do your best arms wide open hundred bullets
To the chest I got a reservation with death
So no there's no hesitation with my last breath
I'll take the muthafucker freely

I lost damn near everyone I had dear
It's getting difficult
I'm trying not to cry cause you're gone but smile cause you where here
It's getting difficult

Try to remember I'm lucky to breathe
There's people suffering much more than me
Nothing is comforting stuck in between
Wondering how to wake up from this dream
Nightmare end of the tunnel no light there
Mama in ICU body can't fight the flu
She hasn't opened her eyes there
Might scare people away
Wonder who they are talking to Spike Jer
I shed the blood from my wound
As it drips to the page in exchange couple rhymes stare
Back at me happily guiding me to
Just a blink of poetic escape
Thank you for that now I gotta go back
To the suffering praying for strength ay

I lost damn near everyone I had dear
It's getting difficult
I'm trying not to cry cause you're gone but smile cause you where here
It's getting difficult
Difficult
Difficult
It's getting difficult
Difficult