Discernment

For all my life I have had the shakes
Caught my heart shifting into foreign shapes
Now this vessel's empty and i'll implode I guess
Because I'll never learn to cope with lonlieness
It's another reason, another season spent trying to turn back time
I want to alienate i want to isolate while I try to grow back my spine
Sit back and watch me as I start to unfold
Cause I was born without self control

Shut up! Don't you say my name
I know what I became
I know exactly where I lost it
It's too late for me to say I'll change
I don't want to enrage
The devil in my closet

Can you tell me where you've been
Cause I can smell that smoke and sulfur creeping up behind my shoulder
It's the beginning of the end
When there's no such thing as absolution all that's left is retribution
I felt him crawling around on my back
We all knew eventually I'd slip through the crack

Shut up! Don't you say my name
I know what I became
I know exactly where I lost it
It's too late for me to say I'll change
I don't want to enrage
The devil in my closet

I saw you rattle around
Writhing without making sound
I tried walking away down an unbeaten path
Terrified of my past
But we're all damned at the end of the day
So bask in the wrath

I thought that I was so funny
Laughing death in the face
When he opened his mouth
I begged him don't say my name