All the Pain

Everyday I look at my life
And I see what I've become
Won't you realize the pain
The pain that I hold on
Thoughts ever day keeps me praying for a way
To keep my mind going in a place that's OK
But now it's confessions while I teach a lesson
For the next 1 hundred and 86 seconds
You all think I'm all rough and tough with no luck
While keeping myself up
But being a setting duck
Cause nothing that I do will keep me un-shuck
Im against the odds
I feel like a mega buck
But when push comes to shuv
I'll always chop chop
Even when the whole world is on my back top
You can never back away from the fights that are made
You gotta hit em with
Full head of steam never let em evade cause
I can't show that I'm ultimately weak
Cause people are counting on me not to be bleak
The pressure amounts to nothing I can describe
Cause whats subscribed is more then just pride
I plead everyday with the man that I need
And I see how he responds in the craziest ways
But I'm always pulled back in the other direction
Yea that's a easy battle what a miss conception
I need you as much as u need me
But it's hard to tell sometimes when the time is creeping
Inch by inch I keep with the evil stitch
That keeps me grounded I feel like a little kid
And now every dream got me got me bleeding in side
I have no clue what to do tonight
Should I end it all and hope to wake up
Or do I keep on sweeping it under the rug
Cause a good amount of you that I see every day
Keep putting on faces to falsely portray
When really nobody's OK so why you acting all fake
He knows who you are don't try and relate
That you've been there and done that without a single step
This journey we on is much more then that
But set back relax cause i ain't one to judge
But I guarantee you this he been looking through the fuzz
Everyday I look at my life
And I see what I've become
Won't you realize the pain
The pain that I hold on