Singularity

I hear the sound of something breaking
From my slumber i awake
I sound that's unfamiliar to me
Even when I drown it out I can't get back to sleep

My throat is hurting more with time
I cover it and realise
I'm empty, my voice has got no sound
So unfamiliar that sound in my head
I feel it through me how its ringing out
On this frozen lake a crack is forming now
That's where I went to go and dump myself
And my voice I buried it, oh just for you

Over the frozen lake of winter
Above the water, ice appeared
And in the dream that i went into
Not a thing has changed, the pain i feel is still the same

Have i lost all of myself?
Or gained a part of you as well?
I run to the lake where i threw myself
And see my reflection inside

Don't say a thing right now, I'm begging you
I reach my hand over the mouth, to hide the sound
I know that someday spring will come again
The ice will melt till everything is like before

Tell me, if this voice of mine is real or not
If i should not have thrown myself away like that
Tell me, if this pain of mine is real or not?
Come tell me what i should have done, way back then.