Dementia

(Dementia) essentially the things that make us higher thinkin' beings
Our memory, our way of calculatin', of plannin', language, they are degeneratin'
Dementia is anything which is affectin' the brain, and the loss of function of the brain
In such a way that the things that we normally take for granted for example
Our ability to remember things, times, dates, events
To place ourselves in a location, to use words, to use language
All of these things begin to disappear

Mama didn't plan me, that felt really weird, then she birthed a nigga, daddy disappeared
Universe was wit' us, glad I'm livin' here, through the dirt we live, Lord had to interfere
Doin' work he movin' bourbon to pursue a cooler dirt to sit in that is really clear
You revert then leave 'em back to this career, didn't recognize her, had it been a year

Mama sacrificed to have a livin' here, went through many troubles as a kid she feared
Nightmares on the daily, that's my mental, yeah, speakin' on me dyin' as an infant tears
Runnin' down her face while judges count the days, I'm shackled in the courtroom askin' 'em to hear
My plea to tell 'em that I'm sane, but they don't feel the same because of how I act, the end is near

Bangin', slangin' plus we strap the pistol here, do a bunch of drugs, had my memory cleared
If these straps I'll black out mad and then appear, been a King but never had a Gwynevere
I forgot it all, blast it with the fear, had a baby made the facts so crystal clear
Master what I'm speakin' grab an engineer, give it to the world but as I give it here

Know my brain is sick, ain't had a freakin' cure, medication had me actin' insecure
Made a rap and fuckin' had to get some gear, lookin' in the mirror, that's my biggest fear
Dancin' with the devil, ask, and he'll appear, spell out, "He'll appear", that shit really weird
Scared to lose myself, God askin' if you'll steer
Hell and Heaven point like that's each hemisphere, and as my memory clears

I don't wanna lose part of me (dementia made me lose it)
Will I cover that broken piece (man this is so confusin')
Stay bold, embody me, hurt the feelings (got so inflicted in the music)
(Ooh) but this is more than music

Searchin' for a purpose, it can get really hard, if you make it that way and then forget who you are
To find our self we take trips from afar, I went through dark matters just to live with the stars
My stomach is a compass, I encompass what it means, I wanna see my destiny fulfill, the window's ajar
I'm a caterpillar in it then I went for a walk, penned my situation and flew like Kendrick Lamar

Damn, ask yourself, is this who you are? Situational relationship, your friends or your job?
A diagnosis givin' your addiction a cause, go places evil waitin' see your kids have revolved
Don't wanna fear who you are, your religion is fraud, and you live what you are
So you sit in the dark with a bunch of sickenin' thoughts

And when they give up it all, but would you lose everything, homie, then you evolve
Am I a criminal? No, but the prison it caused though my memory's lost
I remember the wall, while fulfillin' the dream, I forget that I fall
But I'm still on a seam where the shit had to start

Y'all did this to me, then I did it to y'all
Right ear's what it's in, you know how it is but you wrong
'Cause I revisit the screams, blood spilled down the wall
Now I'm numb to those things, I can't feel anymore

Are you hearin' me Lord? I'm not here anymore, then what I wanna be, but I feel you ignore
Brain in a white cube more than ceilin' and floor, boxed in but that's what the fifth dimension is for
I know it's way more than a physical form, listen my realm can never coexist with the norm
I swear I met the old me in the continuum path
I said don't forget me, dementia ain't long, this how it feels to be lost

I don't wanna lose part of me (dementia made me lose it)
Will I cover that broken piece (man this is so confusin')
Stay bold, embody me, hurt the feelings (got so inflicted in the music)
(Ooh) but this is more than music

Somebody with dementia any particular Alzheimer's disease
These pathways will be severally interrupted
And what's happenin' is where there'll be a normal healthy pathway
To store or retrieve inflation elements of this pathway are lost
And the cells are not workin' as well as they should

So therefore when we try and store information, the ability to store it may be lost
And therefore when we kept, also, when we come to retrieve that information
We may not be able to store it properly, or we that just maybe able to access that information