Waiting Room

Now I just waste time
Awake, in a waiting room without you by my side
Am I alone in this?
Consciousness, suicide
It cuts me down like I'm the wrist and you're the knife
So fucking toxic

And for the last time I'll listen
To the ghost that would carry me right along with him
I lit the match, I lit the match
Please, won't somebody save me from
The lack of a difference I've made?

(I thought it was real, I really did
I pushed so hard, but you pulled back
And as we slowly become one,
I'll separate my own thoughts from your influence
I now know you'll always be half of me
And I'm willing to accept that
But you have to accept the change)

And I lit the match but you tried to save me
(Tried to save me)
They're all living free while we die guilty

But I'll throw it all away, I do it every day
How could I get the message?
I'll never learn my lesson
We're burning anyway, what else can I say?
I didn't learn my lesson
Make sure they get the message

Make sure they get the message
I've felt this before but nothing compares to
The pain that you caused
And the blood that was spilled in vain

And for the last time I'll listen
To the devil feeding hungry vultures
I've come to terms, I'm cold on the outside
It just hurts to find out that you've been
Dead on the inside
What a waste of time, you were for me
Throw it all away

But I'll throw it all away, I do it every day
How could I get the message?
I'll never learn my lesson
We're burning anyway, what else can I say?
I didn't learn my lesson
Make sure they get the message

And I've felt this linger
Why'd you slip through my fingers?
Not a night to remember 'cause I'm never getting better
I'll fight while I can cause I'm holding on to this
I'm holding on

You always thought that I never believed this would last
It took the same strength to leave as it did to collapse

You always thought that I never believed this would last
It took the same strength to leave as it did to collapse