Real Snakes

See it's sad when you gotta have a hundred different personas
Can't even be your true self, gotta show fake love to them fake homies
Can't even show true love to your true homies, nah?
See they say the heaven's a heartbreak away
But love in itself is really just a pain
Makes me not even wanna give your heart away,
But I gave mine up, but I swear that was for the last time
Yeah I did it, but I didn't know and now I regret it
See I gave it my all, and she watched me fall
And now she wont even answer my calls
See I swear that I'm going through hell
Sittin' in a cell, lost up in my thoughts going through my mind
Reminiscing on the times that I contemplated suicide
Sometimes I wish I woulda went through with
I'm not scared to admit it, I wasn't scared
Like when you gotta live with them folks
Layer upon layer of deceit
Always trying to get over one another, always trying to play a brother
I cannot show mercy, trust me I am not weak
These people they, they are so dedicated snakin'
Trying to steal my shit so they can stay medicated
Premeditated false aids, losing track of the true way
Fake smiles, real snakes, fake love
Fake smiles, real snakes, fake love
Fake smiles, real snakes, fake love
Fake fake smiles, real snakes, fake love
See I keep fucking up, done did fifty months, serving time, wasting life
See I could have bettered myself, but I played around and messed around and got hurt
Lost love, lost life, see I could've had the love of my life, but I hurt her
Let alone hurt myself, emotions running high, bro that's just overtime
But see I gotta grow up though it's about time, gotta move on
Gotta leave the past behind, live it one day at a time
Cause the future is the present that hasn't been delivered yet
But see, I let you into my life, I let you know my life story
But did you truly see me for who I really am
See I told you my secrets, but did you truly care who I really am
I let you see me for who I really was
But did you honestly even really love me like you said you would
So now I can't hold what I fear inside
If I only try, I'm only gonna lie, I wish I could smoke just to get high
So I drink only to find what I'm not seeking, so I cover up the truth
So I don't have to face reality
Lying just to cover up my own false morality
See I play around, just to mess around, just to hide my true self
See I can't admit to what I don't know
So I cover up the truth so I won't know
Once upon a time I showed you, you, you, the truth
And I even showed you my true self
So maybe if the old you new the old me
Then maybe the new you coulda loved the new me me me
Baby I might let you in again, let you see again
If you only promise not to hurt me, hate me, try to play me
Baby I can open your eyes, so that you can see me
Please believe me when I say this is truly me
So don't smile to my face when your heart doesn't
Even wanna belong to me, yeah I gave you mine
But you threw it back, like a pass
And I stumbled and fumbled it
Yeah it really messed me up, yeah it really did
But I aint gonna lie though, cause I try not to think of you
Cause I can't get high, just to get by
Cause if they find THC in my DNA then imma go bye bye
But would it really even matter to you
Cause we don't talk anymore
Y'all don't call y'all don't write
Yeah used to give me a fright when I would lay up at night
But what the hell was I even thinking
Cause all the shit you put me through makes me wanna lose it
You built your defenses up so high it be Berlin in the World War shit
Emotions change, yeah they fluctuate a lot yeah we both be on that petty shit
And it really needs to stop, cause we be going round and round in circles
It's like we chained to this vicious cycle
Girl I told you that you can speak freely cause the feds aint gonna be tappin'
So tell me how it really is, tell me how I shoulda been, I only want the truth though
See we used to harmonize like a cello
Lakes Area Symphony girl don't throw a fit with me
Fake smiles, real snakes, fake love
Fake smiles, real snakes, fake love
Fake smiles, real snakes, fake love
Fake fake smiles, real snakes, fake love
Girl we used to see eye to eye, I don't know what went astray
When I got locked up you played me like a play
We used to talk you said I could call every Saturday
But a couple of weeks go by and you quit answering
It pains me to say it, but I think you love it
Watching me struggle just to get by
Yeah my life is a fickle bitch, she fucking me good
Fucked it up for the next chick, like only you could
Everyone tells me that I should let you go though
When we are together nothing else matters ever
There aint never gonna be another girl like you
Don't you say I walked away
Don't Don't you say I walked away
Don't Don't you say I walked away
Thinking anything worth having is gonna be hard to get
Like the love that's worth fighting for girl
You still haunt me even when I'm not asleep
It's like you're creeping through my dreams
I know that my minds a battlefield
And that my body look like a war zone
See you say one thing, but then you do another
And now you got me thinking, but why should I even bother
I know I guess I'm cold
But I guess I really just gotta leave you behind, so I can move on