We Exist

Summoned to the ladder once more
With another bloodstained souvenir
Cause I know when I return to sleep
There won't be a single person there

Just another phantom left
In a tragic vacancy
Of a lingering reminder that was never meant for me

A fable that turned into more
Cruel uncertainty that's killing me
Cannot sleep but there's always a dream
Without constraint turns to murdering

And there's no false hand above
And her slumber turns deeper still
Through another awakening is not how she's returning

Learning in the brash tired ways
Of the same shame and song
Drifted much too far in
This haunted bright ocean

My sun shines differently now
A cruel reminder
That we exist, oh we exist
But only in my mind

The endless steps towards her room
Faltering on the highest throne
Only once you're lost enough
Can you find your back home

A laughing specter
And relentless stagnation
With just another dead-end choir waiting for me at home

Learning in the brash tired ways
Of the same shame and song
Drifted much too far in
This haunted bright ocean

My sun shines differently now
A cruel reminder
That we exist, oh we exist
But only in my mind

Now I know where I am...
Now I know where I am...
Now just when will I wake up
Now I know where I dream still