IV. Wake Up

Wake up nigga
You done lost your mind
You don't lost soul

How come I dont speak up, find somebody to tell
Oh that's right I'm a man, gotta keep to myself
Gotta keep going, keep quiet, gotta stay strong, never show I want help
Make it look like it's all good. Y'all can't say I'm frail

Spare the rod and spoil the child
My abuse was normalized
Now my thoughts unorganized
I thought I was gonna die
Shit, you was almost a homocide
No wonder I'm so traumatized
I was so low I found a high
Pussy, weed, dollar signs
I would wild out from time to time
Just like the rappers I idolized
ADHD quote, unquote outta line
It wasn't bout the grades and how high they rise
My parents couldn't fathom the mind of mine
Seem like beating ass was a 9-5
Replay it in my head about a thousand times
I wouldn't want that for a child mine

Tell me why you always stressed, why you never have no chill
Why you never show no love, tell me how you feel
Why you being mean, why you gotta scream, why you tripping, why you never have no chill
Stop telling me I'm grown. I'm breaking out my shell

How come I don't speak up, find somebody to tell
Oh thats right I'm a man, gotta keep to myself
Gotta keep going, keep quiet, gotta stay strong, never show I want help
Tell me why I love these hoes, but I don't love myself

So that's I️t? Seriously?! How can you do this to me? All I️ did was love you
All I️ did was give my love to you and you just take and take and take until I️ had nothing!
And you can't even say anything
You're just standing there looking stupid as if I️ meant nothing to you
What about me huh? You're so fucking selfish
Where's your compassion? I️ fucking hate you
I️ hate you

I-I-I woke up, stand still
Fuck is on my mind frame
No raybans or Advil, should've listened to kanye huh
Tried to fit I'm but I'm big boi and andre uh
How can l live with this lil voice in my brain
Unfilled voids and mind games
Saying what I'm gon do but
Big noise and mild change
It's poison nowadays
You annoying me nowadays
I look up in the mirror, I feel like you a boy to me nowadays
You disappointing me nowadays
Cause now you a joke
I scream at your type
Call yourself piff but you know
Weed is you vice
Smoke to escape everything you feel in your life
You say that you clearing mind?
You are such a stereotype
It's so much fear in your life and it cuts through
You want them to love your music, you don't even love you
You go through so much confusion, snapping bout your life won't help
If your tweets ain't get no likes will you still like yourself
Swimming deep in yo depression, now you Michael Phelps
I can tell, you scared of life itself, who cares don't cry for help
A bitch nigga in its clear view
You left your girl just so she don't see the real you
You ain't no real nigga, real niggas acknowledge the real truth
Real niggas know how to swallowed their pride and face their fears too
Real niggas could see the flaws in their actions, retract it, fix and adapt it
But deep down you know that you ain't built to
You need to wake up

No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no, no

You need to wake up

No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no, no

I-I-I

How come I dont speak up, find somebody to tell
Oh that's right I'm a nigga, gotta keep to myself
Gotta keep going, keep quiet, gotta stay strong, never show I want help
Make it look like it's all good. Y'all can't say I'm frail

Gotta keep going keep quiet gotta stay strong
Just light a blunt, don't cry, won't take long
Don't say a word, No advice, You ain't wrong
Don't say a word, don't say a word, don't say I️t
Dont be a hero, don't love, dont make noise
Stay in your place, don't try to be great boy
You don't need a hug, you're fine, you're safe
Your intuition telling you lies, you ain't yours