Easier Love

I called you
Sittin' in my car in Portland
It was raining
Like it often is in Portland
You sounded different
You sounded calm, i got dizzy
I told you i crashed my car
Told you I've been singin' about you, pretty
You said something stupid
I forgot how simple you are
And you're not the only one
That I've called in the car
I started laughing
End the call abruptly
You tried to keep me on the line
Tell me something you thought was funny

And you've been my muse
Your heart was the one I used
I drained your story
I made it less boring
I've been done with my mourning
I've forgotten what it was for and

It's ok that you found an easier love
And it's ok that you didn't try hard enough
And I will learn what I'm really made of
On my own in this car and something I've created

And I left you hanging
The last message you sent
To check up on me
I wonder if it's got you bent up thinking
If I'll ever forgive you
I'll do more, I'll thank you
For not letting me waste my life on loving you

I see your kids now
Running around in the garden where we made out
I'm not surprised
She looks just like me
It took me two years to realize
That I was the one who really left you

And you've been my muse
Your heart was the one I used
I drained your story
I made it less boring
I've been done with my mourning
I've forgotten what it was for and

It's ok that you found an easier love
And it's ok that you didn't try hard enough
And I will learn what I'm really made of
On my own in this car and something I've created

And I look ahead
I see great things
I see curly hair
I see babies
We're always changing
And that's the only thing that ever stays

And I threw the boxers out with the sweater
Deleted your last loving text
Got rid of years full of messages
Every argument, every sext
I even threw your mom's painting out
I'm working on that bracelet now
Creating space