Grip

Am I back to being lonely?
Am I back to feeling sick again?
I put a smile upon her face
It's more lost than it's ever been
Am I back to having no appetite?
Am I back to daily tears?
I kind of hope I never feel this way again
But I am here
And the clouds don't make it better
And the rain just makes it worse
And the darkness makes me shiver
And in the quiet, I hear your words
And your voice rings in my head
As clear as the day you said
Your lips close to my ears, you said;
"I love you, and don't forget it..."
I didn't, but you did
You lost your hope and faith, my darling
You gave in
I didn't but you did
Head onto your sleeping hands
But somewhere you lost grip
I am back to all the sad songs
I am back to sleepless nights
I cradle things you've left here
Hoping they might close red eyes
I am back to all my insecurity
I am back to empty stares
They tell me it gets easier
But the broken heart's not theirs
Getting up is a little bit harder
When I breathe is a little more burnt
Almost tell you a million times
Until I realise you're not concerned
I still can't make proper sense of this
Surely we can sit down and talk
This relationship has a lifeboat, honey
There's no need to jump overboard
I didn't but you did
You lost your hope and faith, my darling
You gave in
I didn't but you did
Head onto your sleeping hands
But somewhere you lost grip
(You lost it, you lost grip
You lost it, you lost grip
You lost it, you lost grip)
I still touch you
When you hold me in my dreams
And I still taste your lips on everything I eat
I still see your smile on everyone I meet
You think you're gone, oh no
You're still here with me
(You lost it, you lost grip
You lost it, you lost grip)
You lost it, you lost grip
I didn't, but you did
Darling, I would've died for you
I guess that's what we've seen
(You lost it, you lost grip
You lost it, you lost grip
You lost it)