Numb.

Worst things come to worst
I fucking die a tragic death or some shit
And, I'm not able to see out my dreams
I at least, want to know
That the kids, perceived my message
And were able to make something of themselves
And able to take my message, and use it
And turn it into something positive
And to, to at least have a good life (good life, good life, good life)

I just need to be alone right now
I'm so numb to the world right now
It's like I wanna live, but then I let my head
I'm just wishing that these people could
Really feel my pain right now
And then you see me smile
But I'm just really lost tryna find myself right now
So please pay attention what I say is all real
When I write it down
I wanna stand up, but I've fallen back down

Now my life's crashing down
Wondering what I'm gonna do now
What am I gonna do next
I'm tryna prove myself to these people, I'm the next best
But I'm really just stressed and depressed
So I light another cigarette
With ten papers worth of regrets
And I'm writing in my car 'til the sun sets
And I'm playing these beats til the feeling gets
Surreal, yeah

I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb to this world right now (right now)
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so

Ay
Maybe you should walk a day inside of my shoes
And maybe you would feel the judging that these
People put me through
And maybe you would understand my sudden change in mood
And you think I'm being numb to the feeling when a person hurt you
But I'm not, surprise
Yeah, we hanging up a phone getting blown up by 20 guys
I sip a bitch, full of lies with some angel eyes but she the devil in disguise
Yeah, yeah

Red roses on my grave, looking to the sky
My daddy's gone, I ain't even tell him bye
This silver cross on my neck, asking God why February 21st
I just watch him fly, I just sit back and I cry
I write another line
Tryna push some food down my stomach
Like the clogger
I'm so numb, I don't wanna see the sunshine
Yeah

I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb to this world right now
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so
Yeah

What is?
Like what y'all don't understand about my music is like
When I say I'm numb like
I have to drown out all the hate that's drawn my way
Just so that I can
You know, try to pursue this dream that I have, and
And it's hard 'cause like, my thoughts start rushing
Well I get this anxiety that like takes over my body

And I'll just be driving down the road
And my face just goes numb
'Cause my thoughts are racing
And that's why I wrote this song
'Cause I just get numb, like I have to block out all that pain
You know?
So, that's why
That's why I'm feeling so, feeling so
Yeah

I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb to this world right now
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so numb, yeah
I'm so
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