Anxiety

I guess I lose myself within my brain, it happens frequently
The angel, and the demon are perched upon my shoulder blades it seems
They keep on whispering, they argue over everything
There's so many different opinions, and I'm getting sick of hearing them
Just wanna go through life without worry about everything
But can't get through a day without an onslaught of anxiety
It makes everything a struggle, even walking out the house is hard
No one can understand, they brush me off and act as if I'm scarred
And then you wonder why I'm always antisocial?
No one is a friend of me, they push until I'm postal
Most unlikely to succeed, shout out to the coast kids
I don't give a fuck, I never get caught up in bullshit
So you can keep rapping, about how good you are at rapping
I'm gonna keep on moving past you, and losing myself in passion
'Cause this is all I do, can consider me a true master
I'll go add 10,000 hours, just to have 20,000 more than you

So now ya'll looking at me, I can see you see me
Standing in the front row, wishing you could be me
Or else your at home, watching on the tv
Way ahead of myself, but speaking on what I believe

So now ya'll looking at me, I can see you see me
Standing in the front row, wishing you could be me
Or else your at home, watching on the tv
Way ahead of myself, but speaking on what I believe

It's nothing new, surprised I even left my room today
I'd love to live and embrace change, but could never push this fear away
It tortures me through every single minute of the day
I wake up in a cold sweat, I wish the demons would leave me be
But I can't do it myself, so I resort to popping pills
Try to muster up the strength to walk by it and leave the cabinet sealed
But I've been failing on the daily, I've been losing it
Starting to love the feeling of the numb, it let's me loose from it
And I won't cry for help, I just deal with it all myself
I'd love to be outside in public, but I'll end up inside my house

'Cause I'm much more comfortable whenever I am in the studio
It's the only time I'm free from anxiety, and all the leeches too
So now I'm "happy"
The last word's in quotation marks
I cant recall the last time I truly felt that way at heart
So now you know how he inside of my head works
Think you'd still love me?
I'm sure you'd probably get bored first

So now ya'll looking at me, I can see you see me
Standing in the front row, wishing you could be me
Or else your at home, watching on the tv
Way ahead of myself, but speaking on what I believe

So now ya'll looking at me, I can see you see me
Standing in the front row, wishing you could be me
Or else your at home, watching on the tv
Way ahead of myself, but speaking on what I believe