Abandon You (A Desperate Prayer)

Childhood is over
I get sick on the swings

Even if I become a success
I'll still be sitting alone in a dark room
What'll change if I get what I want

Takes ten men to push boulder
One gets his foot stuck under
They get another man to help push it
Off
But they end up crushing more

So am I doing something I can be proud of
Or is false confidence a plague on my future

Do you have to leave me now
Can't you stay a bit longer
Do you have to leave me now
I'm sorry

Don't look straight at me
I'd give anything
I'll give up someday
I'll move far away
Electrician man
Marry first girl I can
Settle for anything
I'll pluck at guitar
That was who you are
That was who you are
And you failed
I'll cry, misery
Who did I want to be
I'll cry, misery
Who did I want to be

You would never hear from me again

I may abandon you
I will abandon you

I look back
At my life
Everything
Kept inside
And it really doesn't seem to be much like me

Superstar
Taurus car
Zero bars
No regard
And it really doesn't seem to be much like me

There's always a last time
Well, we could arrange that

I will be honest with myself
I am so lost
If I find that I bore of you
I will leave you in the dark
I've done it too many times before I go I will blame you
Consider both perspectives
Consider what you'll take to grave

It's what we spend our lives deciding

When does it end? I'm so tired
Will I ever be satisfied

When does it end? I'm so tired
Why am I doing this to me

I got a
A daughter
She must be
My daughter
Why else would I care for someone I do not know

We get in
A deep talk
Late at night
Sadly I
Don't want to hear I just want to talk 'bout myself

Pure evil is absence
Pure evil is absence

If I get killed while barely living
Am I really even dying at all

I like to abandon everyone and then try to forget
I get that from the grandpa I never met