Nothing Else

My skin's rotting off of my body
I'm something resembling a zombie
Too many Xans with my coffee
I'm fucked up again, yeah, you caught me
My eyes don't lie, I've never recovered
Your smile screams back how you've never had to suffer
Your pupils are dilated, drugged up & lustful
You get off on my pain, finger bang to my struggle
You taunt me in my dreams, so I never sleep
I pretend I never knew you like I never knew that peace
I can't focus, so I hold back on the beats
Lost somewhere on the hierarchy of needs

You got me feelin' defeated, like you wanted nothing else
I used to think that you were the reason, yeah, I thought you were something else
Borderline again
Now my heart's cold, here's what you asked for
Glued to the barstool, while you're on the dance floor
How's your new love, baby, how's your new home
As I rot around this hole that you grew from

Your skin's so pale in the moon glow
Who's this man? Is it somebody you'd know?
The ocean breeze, it put me through the loophole
I can see it all as you move slow in the timeshift
It all grinds to a halt
Every speck of sand and molecule of salt
In the Gulf turns to fire, closing up the vault
You turn one time and look at me, tell me it's my fault
Tell me I should die, everyone's better off that way, okay
And if I make it to see a new day
I should turn around and off myself, that I can never change, it's what you say

You got me feelin' defeated, like you wanted nothing else
I used to think that you were the reason, yeah, I thought you were something else
Borderline again
Now my heart's cold, here's what you asked for
Glued to the barstool, while you're on the dance floor
How's your new love, baby, how's your new home
As I rot around this hole that you grew from

You're the reason for my seasonal depression, believe it
All I'm seekin' is my freedom from your words, your love, your treason
You never loved me like that, only throwin' back the cat
Always throwin' on my cap, always gropin' at the cracks
In my foundation, denied me salvation
Left me contemplatin', embarrassed and naked

You got me feelin' defeated, like you wanted nothing else
I used to think that you were the reason, yeah, I thought you were something else
Borderline again
Now my heart's cold, here's what you asked for
Glued to the barstool, while you're on the dance floor
How's your new love, baby, how's your new home
As I rot around this hole that you grew from