Love, Pt. 2

I never woulda thought I see eyes that were beautiful
Like aqua dew against the window the brain was remedial
And that was back in 2010 just you and me
Around the corner after school we would often meet
It was okay for us
While everyone scandalous we had a life relationship that was sprinkled with angel dust
And I had lust for you like succubus till my world had collapse
And even thru dark you had offered me a relapse
Father time
Father time
Rewind me back to the times
Where I would see the world thru her wonderful slanted eyes
That was around the time that my cousin met his demise
You came into my life and it was the biggest surprise
We was different but we made it work
I aint even need a Sunday cause u were my church
But baby it was hard to love cause we loved in world full of lies
Cause you thought of suicide when you looked me into the eyes

I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no no

Portraits painting these canvases of ya dreams
What it seems that you had had this mundane image of me
I really tried to work it out
But everytime we tried to talk you woulda shut me out
I never woulda understood ya mind because it was different than everybody
Yeah you hang in out with dem but I see you a different body
I was tryna tell you different you wasn't takin my side
I aint tryna be betrothed to the greatest rapper alive
And I was sure you woulda understood
I'm too introvert
The egotistical was in ya ear and I had to shirk
In the corners I lurked so many tears I had dispersed
Because I saw that purple lady who dragged down to the dirt
We used roamed city often
Now we never talkin
Daddy beating me without ya love it gets exhausting
Dirty ass nigga why you leave me in darkness
Loved you to the point where I humored most of ya pride
But now I think of suicide when I'm lookin into ya eyes

I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no no

Thought I could control myself
Instead I lost my faith
Too busy for my heart cause I was wrestling self hate
And now I see you cryin it ain't nothing to debate
But if I lose you now I might shatter for I break but it's cool
I want you happy no more these reparations, no more of a miscarriage no more of domestic violence
I had took a phone call and spoke to ya uncle about it
He cordial and knew there was nothin funny about it
I had never felt a chill that was severing most my spine
Until that day you packed up and left me here all behind
It happens for a reason or universal design
Before I loaded up this nine a vibration tapped on my line
Told me in them red letters that I was forever yours and that you saw me crumbling
And you couldn't take it no more
It sounded more so like a reach and instead I chose to ignore
But I ain't know it was so deep that you let it all take it's course
And that September I had wondered why I was still in my ego
I guess my chest was cold and influenced by just the c notes
These instruments was heavy and I ain't know how to cope
Until I figured you had lost yo mind and all hope
And now I'm struggling to understand pleading to god why
I thought that happiness was oour guidance in mere disguise
And in knowing that I knew I was only pleading to you
Cause in this world there aint no love and that happens to be the truth
So I don't think coincidence really hardly even describes
When I was on the edge and you felt that half the time
Because I just wanted drugs and my fame to pop off these lines
Cause of that you hung yourself without me it was suicide

I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no more
I don't even look at streetlights the same no no

I see sunshine
All the time
My mind stuck on you
I can't seem to shake the thoughts I have of you
My baby

I see sunshine
All the time
My mind stuck on you
I can't fill my voids cause the holes you left me
My baby

Ain't around
I been feeling like they wanna take me down
I must have a thing they wanna take now
Imma have to go hard and shake the whole town
The whole town
And when you ain't around
I just get to thinking and I hate it now
I got to hit the stu and make a new sound
I got to hit the stu and make a new sound
A new sound

My baby loves me
I know
I just don't listen
My heart is sacred
I know but I have to sin
I'm not perfect
I'm not beautiful
But if you ain't here for me
Then whatchu do it for
I'm not perfect
I'm not beautiful
But if you ain't here for me
Then whatchu do it for

I see sunshine
All the time
My mind stuck on you
I can't seem to shake the thoughts I have of you
My baby

I see sunshine
All the time
My mind stuck on you
I can't fill my voids cause the holes you left me
My baby