Only Desert

Reinvent your expectations
And deny me information
Circumnavigate my love
And slip right in with your frustrations
Carve me up with indecision
Wear me down to degradation
And no matter how I fucking try
Maintain each bleak negation

Reinvent your expectations
And deny me information
Circumnavigate my love
And slip right in with your frustrations
Carve me up with indecision
Wear me down to degradation
And no matter how I fucking try
Maintain each bleak negation

But I'll stay a while
In almost-warmth
Beside a photon's worth of light
And smile
And keep my abject jests
And know that somehow it'll be alright

And know this garbled narrative will fit
And bankrupt stars will one day re-ignite
A you'll see me
And somewhere far from here we'll close the night

But now could never be translucent time
And now you're sleeping in between my keys
And all this rasping throat can do is scream
Still knowing, back inside, that wouldn't please
A mind that gnaws the summary
Of everything I'm not and never was
And in a bleaker glare I'd say you knew
And stamped yourself across some more of me
(You always win, always win)
And gain something to spin out
Barbed hooks bleak
And blunt with deeper blue
To gash the syllables I speak
And bring them down
And pull out all the embers of my frown
And with well-practiced curtsies
Fling them at the crowd

I'd hate you if reflection let me say
That things were tainted
Sunk in disarray
Between serrated glares and silent burns
As off against the side a whisked world turns
And everyone is them
And I don't know
And all that mangled jolt of everything might glow
Or likewise just remain sat here with me
Beside the other pictures that I could in time have painted
With words of mud and ash and the remains
Of what I dragged some way behind when I was free
And knew my name was not admonished scorn
And knew I'd never grow a rose from thorns

But here I am
Smiling my teeth to shape
Ready for those who just don't give a damn
Crinkling a name
(If only here)
And carving out lost hours

Crinkling a name
(If only here)
And dreaming for those days of light
And flowers

Crinkling a name
(If only here)
And carving out lost hours
And dreaming for those days of light
And flowers

And dreaming for those days of light
And flowers