Doesn't matter

I'm lingering on when they kiss
Leaning towards this abyss
And of lately the only people I can stare
Are the unraveled ones with their hands laying bare
But their hands are numb and empty
Their dull silence soothes me
Loud whispers in my back as if I couldn't hear
Thought I left ghosts behind
But they're just coming near

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
If I believe in god
And if god does exist

Rage as a fabric, through and through
Like that gaze used to do
'Cause those suicidal thoughts that are still in my head
Gives her that awful side-smile when I lay in bed

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
If I believe in god
And if god does exist

She's barely feeding, but she'll deny
Ribbon-legged, she passes by
Until she surrenders in the midst of the street
And the guys simply stare but continue to eat

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
If I believe in god
And if god does exist

It doesn't matter, does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
If I believe in god
And if god does exist

And if I'm cast out
'Cause I wanted some more
And if this guy dances too close to the shore
And if I could just push this door chalked on the wall
And if after the void there's somewhere else to fall

Forget I said it
I soliloquize
It's stinging nettle
Their hands on their thighs
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah
Don't ever tell them, I've got your back, yeah yeah
Choking to tears with shards of sunlight, yeah yeah
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah

Run if you stole a shard of sunlight (Oh, run)
Don't ever tell them, I've got your back
(Save all you can)
Choking to tears with shards of sunlight
(You won't be found)
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight
(And never come back)

It doesn't matter, does it
(And never come back)
If I know any exit
(And never come back)
If I believe in god
(And never come back)
And if god does exist
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
(Save all)

It doesn't matter, does it
(And never come back)
If I know any exit
(Save all)
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
If I believe in god
And if god does exist