Thought I Saw Fire

Yo I think back and I try to recline
But then I just can't when a beautiful mind
Is one that will allow for the negative shit
But will ensure even more that you never forget
All the people you've affected, the lives you've touched
Every drug you've ingested to build a crutch
Though it may not be a lot, yo it's still too much
Or your logic and morals, they wouldn't stand as such
You wouldn't hand these cuts over to someone less deserving
Pawning off the knowledge and the lessons you keep learning
Turning into what it is you hate beneath the surface
With a purpose of malevolence so death will make you nervous
I bet it will concern us at the point of no return
The frequency at which we lose our colors and we burn
Life must be earned, and I've barely any left
So I take hold of it until my very last breath

Motivational factor, fraction of a moment in time
Captured by the mind transmitted in rhyme
Trying to make it understood, underwent the wonderment
Of discovery and uncovering of the multifaceted masked me
No villainy, just really me underneath it all
No show off heroics in fact, far below it
At the core bottom floor of the building
The rooms are taped off but have closeted skeletons filled inside
Remove the barrier sometimes to clear the dome
Feel like a vagabond trying to get near to home
I'm almost there... closer than I thought I was
Remove each layer, it's tougher when you fought for love
Every inch of the ground gained remains scorched by the flames
As a reminder of my infirmity through the eyes of eternity
I thought I saw fire, now I'll never be the same
Altered permanently

They needed you more than they needed me
But I guess you need them more than their families
Mr. Overdose you trying to see how a man will be
With his folks comatose on channel 3
Nah, never that, you took Chad from us, remember that?
Back when we lived in NAC did you look at Dad
North Abington Center when I was still in Mass
You got me really gassed
I can't wait for the day the threat of you has passed
Hanging from a thread of regret while reaching in my stash
I'm assed out with a hollow heart
Solid as a hard headed veteran, never fall apart
I'll play the part when you vacate yours homie
I'll quit barking when you take no more from me
I see the fire when I think of you
Coming for mine you should think it through