Masks

My mask of pain was just an illusion
You saw right through it and I wanted intrusion
I tell myself it's not worth the pain
For what's at stake, and what's to gain

I felt so down like I've done it before
I ask myself would I come back for more

I've read it all before in books
But this is more, more than it looks
I couldn't find any words to say
When you stole my heart on that day

Felt so low, like I wanted to run away
But I know I'd be back the next day

Feelings inside can't be controlled
Nothing to hide, no need to be told
It's just my pride makes me seem bold
And my shame makes me seem cold

It was never destined to be
It wasn't right for you or me

Some say I'm weird, some say I'm slow
Some say I'm cool, others don't know
So many things I try to adore
So many things but I still want more

My heart is caught between these extremes
My heart is tethered to different dreams

Time has come to let go of you
But in my heart I'll always be true
Got to go on, make a new start
Pick up the pieces of this broken heart

I felt so down like always before
Yet I know I'd come back for more

My mask of pain was just an illusion
You saw right through it and I wanted intrusion
I tell myself it's not worth the pain
For what's at stake, and what's to gain

I felt so down like always before
Yet I know I'd never come back for more

You always knew I liked your style
You always knew I liked your style

I felt so down like always before
Would I ever come back for more